I was going to start today’s post with Friday…but I honestly can’t remember a single thing that happened Friday. So I guess that’s how Friday went LOL. I think I did the same things Friday night as I did Saturday, but I don’t even know at this point. Anyway, Saturday was pretty good! I started my day going grocery shopping, as adults do. Then I also got some food and boba as a treat for leaving my apartment Saturday, because I probably wouldn’t have otherwise. The rest of my day was quite literally spent at my computer, working on various things. Mostly, this here website. I’m working on adding a few more pages and things related to flute lessons, so I’ve been preparing and designing all of that. Then I have an idea for my next set of social media posts, so I’m working on drafting the blog part of that. Oh and I worked on my recital poster. So yeah, LOTS of computer stuff and sitting in the same spot. It wasn’t bad though, I do enjoy things like this, designing and working a bit more creatively on things. I’m hoping the work will pay off too 🙂 . Another thing I did Saturday was a bit unusual. This has happened a few times in the past, but every so often the desire to draw/paint consumes me. And when I say consume me, I do mean it. I loose track of time and forget everything around me. And that’s what happened Friday night and into Saturday. I decided I wanted to work on something new, so I pulled out my tablet and began. I literally ended up spending hours just drawing. I didn’t notice the Sun go down or my stomach growling from hunger until I was almost done. That was my Friday night actually…drawing…so exciting I know. But then I continued to do so Saturday after working on my website. Honestly, the two days were kind of a blur of drawing, designing, and sitting at my desk. I suppose I should share the drawing I did instead of just letting everyone wonder. But that’s also low key scary, but I shouldn’t care. I am by no means an artist, I just enjoy doing things like this every so often. It’s honestly really nice to just focus on something like this, not worrying too much how it comes out and not having to worry about the real world.
Now Yesterday was a busy and long day with our concert. We left at 8am to get to Charleston, WV, where our concert was held. Our school’s big hall is under construction, so that’s why it wasn’t just on campus. Once we got there, hours later, we ate lunch and then had a short rehearsal. There was a lot of downtime too since it was a combined concert with our orchestra. But it was fine. The hall we played in was beautiful and I honestly think that it’s the largest hall I’ve played in. I also thought the concert went really well! I shared the livestream of the concert on Facebook if anyone is wanting to watch 🙂 . Then after the concert, we headed back and I don’t think I got to my apartment until like 7pm, and I immediately took care of Piper and doordashed food because I was STARVING. Then I basically just fell right asleep (or as fast as I could with my insomnia T_T)
Today was okay. Definitely a bit of a harder mental day and I woke up and could feel myself starting to disassociate, but I pushed through it. I do find myself getting frustrated sometimes, as I know that my life right now is a lot better than it has been and I’m so thankful for that and all that I have, but at the same time, I’m still feeling the way I had when things weren’t like this. It makes me feel guilty almost, which is so dumb. Progress isn’t always linear. Today wasn’t as great, but I’m still better than I was a year ago. I’m still going to have bad days, but that doesn’t mean that I’ve fallen right back into the pit, I just slipped a little.
I did have a lesson today as well, where I basically walked in and told her I was tired of my recital rep, because I am. I have no desire to play the pieces and can’t wait to be done with them. So we ended up just working on some technique things which was really nice. Then I had a short band rehearsal where we just sight read some stuff (one of the pieces went up to a fourth octave e on piccolo….why and how??) and turned in music. Afterwards, another flutist and I got together and played some of our rep for each other since her first recital is this week! She’ll do great 🙂 . Then I did my usual, came home, ate, worked on some more homework (which was designing a lesson flyer ooooh), worked on a social media vid I hope to get out soon and now am blogging. I still have a few more things I need to get done, but then I’m hoping I can squeeze in a few eps of a Kdrama and head to sleep.
Tomorrow and Wednesday should be pretty normal, I don’t have anything exciting planned except for working on more social media and website stuff lol. We do have studio class tomorrow where we’re doing a group learning thing on Chant de Linos which I think will be nice. Wednesday I actually don’t have band rehearsal, which is the only thing I would have. Hopefully I’ll find it in myself to head to the music building and practice though.
by juniparker
