Its been rough y’all. That’s all I gotta say.
No I’ll say more lol. So last I blogged was the Penn State game a while ago. I honestly couldn’t tell you what I did the begining of last week. I was probably busy every day as I have been for a while now, prepping new folders and whatnot. I know I was excited on Thursday because my composition lesson was cancelled, so I had time to go shop for things I’ve been wanting to make our ga office less dead. Which I think I succeeded in. I also got Piper and I matching pajamas, which we’ll definitely be taking pics in when it gets closer to October. That’s about all I remember week-wise. Just super busy with school and has work. And the weekend was no exception.
Saturday we had our first home game….which was a lot. I walked over to the stadium, which is about a mile away and people assured me that it would be much quicker to walk and it was, especially because of the shortcuts I found. So I was there around noon, then was running around helping as needed. After “mantrip” where part of the band basically walks across campus with the football team, we had dinner. And then we were supposed to have sectionals, but I was asked to stay behind for an athletic trainer to see one of the kids. Turns out they were partly wrong and the person wasn’t physically hurt, but they were having a pretty intense panic attack. So eventually the trainer needed to leave and one of the GA’s there with me also left with a different student to bring them to go get in their parade block to march in. And I stayed back to help this person through a panic attack. It was long and we ended up missing pregame, but like I told the person, it was more important for them to be okay then to go out on the field and something happen. So I was part therapist and part doctor, as I had to try to get them to eat and drink, since they hadn’t really, in fear of throwing up again, which happened at other games. But eventually they were good and we headed to the stadium to meet with the band. And it didn’t stop there! Then the bad weather came and they made everyone leave the stadium. And they didn’t cancel the game, so after a few hours of waiting around, we went back out, though they cancelled the halftime show. The team eventually won, which is good I guess, but I didn’t get home until like midnight and I figured I’d be back way earlier, so no one was with Piper. She was okay though, which is obviously good. But it was such a long and tiring day. Then on Sunday, I had a wind symphony concert! So no break lol. The concert went really well though and after it I tried to chill as much as possible.
And finally, yesterday and today. Yesterday the craziness continued. After our band office meeting I decided I wanted a little treat from Starbucks and on my way there I witnessed a car accident where a car came over into oncoming traffic and hit the car just in front and to the right of me. So that was a lot. I also was really feeling not good, very nauseous and mentally drained. So I ended up cancelling my flute lesson, which was honestly nice. After band, I was able to get groceries finally and then sleep. Then I had a video chat with a few graduated friends and then went right back to sleep lol. Then today was pretty normal, nothing eventful.
Like I mentioned, mentally things have been really tough. The football games really take a lot out of me. That combined with the near panic attacks at the games just don’t help. On top of that I am very stressed with everything. I have a lot of homework that I’ve split up into small parts and have made them as small as possible to get everything done in time. But it’s still stressful. Time wise I’m gone all the time when I just want to be at home- I could even be working, but at least I’m home. Then to add to the mix, I haven’t been sleeping great, mostly due to Piper being on some steroids still and she’s constantly hungry, thirsty or needing to go out, so she wakes me up like every two hours. So yeah, my body is starting to reflect that I think, which is where the nausea, headaches and general fatigue is coming from. It sucks lol. But what can you do…. hopefully, the band directors are right and after this month things will calm down a bit and I’ll be able to handle the stress better and have more time to breathe 🙂 .
by juniparker
