It’s a quick update because nothing has really happened. I did nothing this weekend and if I’m being completely honest it was rough mentally. I don’t really know what triggered it, but having nothing to do over the weekends makes me basically just sit and think too much. I was just really emotional, which hasn’t happened in a while, at least like I was this weekend. But I’m still here lol.
Today was also pretty normal. My practice was alright and I spent some time today to just play through music I liked. Rehearsal was normal, we have our first concert Friday which should be good. Then I had my lesson, which was also good. At the end I talked to my professor a bit more about my motivation this semester (which is really impressive to me because I normally would not speak a word of that to anyone). Basically, I start the week motivated and then it just drops Thursday and doesn’t come back until Monday. So she suggested I try to just take Thursday off, so I’ll have Monday through Wednesday practicing, Thursday off, and then practice Saturday and finally take off Sunday like I normally do. I think it could work, so I’m going to give it a try. Hopefully it’ll help because having no motivation sucks. I also have my recital hearing a week from today, which is slightly terrifying, but at the same time I think I’m well prepared.
Tomorrow I’ve got a performance in our studio class, which I think will go well…fingers crossed. We’ll see if I try it from memory or chicken out lol. And that’s really all I’ve got for today. When I said I did nothing this weekend but sit in my miserable thoughts, I mean it. Pretty sure I probably stared at a wall for an hour straight. It’s fine though. I’m just going to keep on hanging on and getting up after being hit by metaphorical busses 🙂
At least Piper was cute over the weekend even though she decided laying on my table is so comfortable.
by juniparker
