If you want to know how I’ve been and don’t want to read, just go listen to Stray Kid’s SLUMP (they have an english version) and that about sums up everything better than I ever could and will be attempting to do.
My days have been pretty repetitive and boring the past 3 whole weeks. The first two of those weeks I wasn’t doing any better than before honestly. I wish I could say I magically felt better, but no. That’s okay though I guess. My days consisted of naps, doomscrolling, watching K-dramas, painting, practicing with the occasional trip outside running errands with people or getting boba. And weekly therapy- which I weirdly am starting to look forward to? I couldn’t tell you why, but I guess I do really like this therapist lol. She also does a yoga class for clients/friends every week that I’ve been going to with my dad. The first class was real hard, but the other was good and I definitely want to continue going.
This past week however, I actually was doing better, which my therapist even noticed LOL. And as soon as she asked if I knew why, I realized I did know what was different. I started planning social media posts again and making them. So I guess it goes to show that I really do love the creativity behind posts, even if no one watches them or likes them, it actually helps my mental state. Of course social media in general can do the opposite sometimes, but this past week it’s been helpful!
I’ve also begun journaling, which I maybe mentioned in the last post, but that’s been going good. It’s really nice to sit down at the end of the day and just write. Sometimes it’s a few pages, sometimes it’s barely half, but either way it’s nice to do. I’m not sure it’ll be nice to go back and read, but it’s at least nice to write…maybe that’s why I feel like I have nothing to say here? Who knows. Highly recommend though. Just dump your thoughts somewhere before bed.
I kinda wish I had more to say, but still not having a job makes my days look pretty similar and feeling pretty similar. Again, stray kids says how I’ve been feeling better than I could explain 🙂 This week though, my sibling and I are going to an Xdinary Heroes concert, so that’s going to be super fun. There’s also a renaissance fair that we’re planning on going to. So hopefully I’ll have another good feel week (does that even make sense?)
by juniparker
