First off, I’m blogging on my phone right now because I simply don’t want to get out of bed to type lol… So if formatting is weird, I apologize and I’ll fix it later. Anyway! Ugh, to much had happened. So Thursday just sucked if I’m being straight up honest. I had class, which was fine and then it went downhill. I went to work on folders and there still wasn’t toner so I waited and it came and I got to work, but nothing was working like it should. Then I had to last minute put different things into the folders and it all overwhelmed me I guess and sent me into a panic attack…I feel like now it seems stupid that I did, but I also had been in that office every day from like 9-6 and I didn’t get a chance to eat lunch Thursday because of the folders, so it was a lot. Any way, I ended up going home for a bit so Piper could help me out before heading to studio class and then marching rehearsal… And still no lunch 🥲. After all that, I didn’t go home lol. I went to the library to get some papers notarized and then to a dollar store for envelopes and then home where I finally ate and basically immediately went to bed since the panic attack caused a headache to form. So yeah, thumbs down on Thursday.
Friday, however, was better. I’m taking a class on the Alexander technique, which I’m actually really excited about. I’ve been reading about it and when I got the email saying they were going to have a class on it, I jumped on it. There’s only 4 people in the class, which would scare me away usually, but with the Alexander technique being super hands on learning, it’ll be so nice to have do much one on one work with our professor. I’m hoping the class will allow me to feel better physically and honestly it sounds like it might help mentally too. After that, you guessed it, I finished two extra folders that joined late for one band, but it was fine. Then I had rehearsal, where I found out I’m the only one with a piccolo… So I’ll be doing tons of piccolo lol. Then my day ended with a marching band rehearsal, once again just going home and sleeping really.
Saturday I was finally able to breathe a bit. I slept in, and then met with my flute mentee which was nice. Then I did some grocery shopping, some homework and then relaxed finally. Today was similar, plenty of sleep and relaxing to reset myself for this week. I also composed a lot today which was nice.
This past week overall was really rough, but I’m trying to stay positive and tell myself this next week will be better. And I already do feel a lot better after being able to breathe, relax and sleep this weekend. Folders are done, so I’m out of folder hell and don’t have to spend my every free minute at a printer. I’ll be able to practice again and eat my meals and hopefully get a more straightforward week!!