To start, I do apologize for not blogging yesterday. I really meant to, but it slipped my mind and I didn’t remember until like 11:30 last night. Whoops. Anyways, Saturday was a lot of fun. I ended up going to Pittsburg with some friends. After dropping one off for a quick rehearsal, we decided to go to Starbucks. But me being me spotted a boba shop like right across the street, so I got that and then went into Starbucks lol. It was worth it though because that was some good boba. Once the rehearsal was over, we met back up to go ice skating, which was so much fun. I absolutely love ice skating, so I was happy. Plus the rink was in this really cool spot in the middle of the city, with these buildings that looked like castles with mirrors.
After skating, we went and got some Korean BBQ, which was pretty good, before heading back. It was a full day, but definitely a good one. In contrast, I didn’t do anything Sunday. Pretty sure I just slept a ton. Yesterday was also pretty normal school-wise, but I did have my first lesson! We went over Chant de Linos with my pianist and things make a lot more sense now, which is great. I also did a ton of work on getting my recital hearing together and other not fun business things. Practice wise, I honestly just did what I felt like yesterday instead of coming up with a plan, which was actually really nice. Sort of related- for my methods and pedagogy class we had to take a MBTI type and I got a new type. I’ve been INFP for a while, but got ISFP this time. But after reading, I can totally see it. It also explains why training logs are difficult to me, because I don’t particularly like routine. So having yesterday to just do what I felt like in the practice room was really nice.
Today, once again not much happened. I had my classes, and then I practiced a lot. I did get a bit more tired today, but I still think I got a lot done. I have one of the two other pieces I’m memorizing for my recital done (or as done as it can be), which is exciting. The other is getting there. I’ve spent my night doing my lesson notes, score study, emails, and soon more homework. Gross.
Mentally, I’ve been okay. Not necessarily good, but also not bad. I am noticing a pattern with my mental health I can share. I think during the week overall, I’m usually just okay, with some nights being tough. I think it’s just because I’m so busy, I just simply don’t have time to get into my head. But this can make weekends really suck. Like this past one, Saturday was good because I was busy, I was still a bit anxious throughout the day, but nothing bad at all. Sunday however, wasn’t great. I didn’t have anything I needed to do so my thoughts just consume me. It’s not very fun. I don’t even know what’s worse- getting stuck in a daily routine and feeling down because I feel like my life is on a constant and boring repeat, or having this busy routine that doesn’t allow me to think during the day, so it all comes flooding out when I have a day or hours off. It’s so weird. Especially weird to think about the fact that there are people who don’t have these issues ever. Bizarre to me, really.
by juniparker
